AMONG THE WARRIORS
“As coal is pressed into a diamond, experience presses us into the clear jewel that we are. ~~~ Mark Nepo
Sometime in the middle of last week, I became struck by the spectrum of people who filled the radiation oncology waiting room, who had by coincidence and what some would call “bad luck” ended up sitting, day after day, together, awaiting the painful process that would bring about healing. Their variety is marked, from the brash, confident young woman juggling her devices, clearly ready to get her treatment done and be on her way, to the stooped, elderly couple who, though he be the patient, leaned equally upon one another. There is the middle-aged Latina, always alone, with sad eyes, but firm shoulders, the tall, proud African-American man who never shows any weakness, but is quick to be kind to the others, the cherubic teenager with the flowered scarf covering her bald head which, one imagines, holds the brain tumor that must be burnt away if she is to live beyond 17. She sits next to her mother, softly curling into her body until they are almost one.
And many more, each, to the person, standing up and saying “No!” to death. Not any one, most likely, thought that they would be having to make that choice, that declaration, so soon, but after the shock, confusion and terror had subsided, each was called upon to respond. And I can see, in the eyes of each individual, the determination, the intense hunger for life and the clarity that prompted them to say: “No. Not now. It is not my time. I still have things left to do.”
Maybe something changes when someone’s disease becomes too powerful and she is forced to surrender. I don’t see that here in this microcosm that is buzzing with life. Even the most seemingly depressed and beaten down don’t have the look of defeat. Not even one. These people are warriors, in the true sense of the word, and if anyone is looking for examples of real courage, I would invite them to just come in, take a seat, and look around. This is where life is affirmed and embraced. It is where ordinary people become extraordinary because they look unwaveringly at death and choose life.
And if you still have doubt? Stick around for when one walks up to the giant brass gong at the exit and wallops it so hard it reverberates throughout the room. This signifies to all that one of us has made it and is walking back into his now glorious life. Eyes light up and the place just sizzles!!